Katterikuppam, ReaLisatioN

This was the first time, I couldn’t digest expectations. Earlier similar things would afloat me, make me feel good. After all, expectation means belief. They expect coz’ they believe.
They expected me coz’ they believed me. But as a matter of fact, I am far from reliable in the field. I am like a babbling baby who has learnt some words. Similar is my status. All I know is some words and their meanings. Long way to become somebody reliable.



They were not sarcastic at me while asking for my opinion. Sarcasm is something not found in village. I learnt it and use it in town only. They were just gullible, a typical of village people. Far, in the land, not less than 1500 miles away from home, the facts that somebody coming from same place, same social and economical background might have made them expect more: somebody who could understand their dialect and lingo might have made them tell the story and ask me about that.

I had no reason to feel bad. If they expect, it only confirms what I ought to do. It only means I gotta be more responsible for the numerous beliefs and expectations. I had been struck by realization. Furiously amazed earlier, I started feeling happily bad! Feeling bad for the my temperament (albeit it was short lasting) and happily because furiousness has turned into realization,

Again the same bus, except its not much crowded. Easy way back room!!